When things tend to crop up that stress me out, I withdraw. The past week has been that way for me and I have avoided posting on my blog, getting more of our first plantings going, seeing/talking to friends and spending more time in my barn alone to process things.
I had severe allergies as a child. My father used to clean carpets for the doctor in exchange for the much needed allergy shots I received twice a week. As a result of being sickly my teeth have always been a problem as the enamel is soft and problematic. I have had major dental work done over the years with no dental insurance and paid more than my first new car cost. I have been with my company for 24 years and we have good medical insurance but no dental.
I recently had an issue with a front tooth that has already been worked on twice before. I went to my dentist of 20+ years and he said it needed to have a root canal along with the tooth next to it that already had a root canal as that root canal did not hold up and needed to be redone and then I would need new crowns on those and a bottom root canal also needed to be retouched. This would be approximately another $6,000 to $8,000.00. WHAT????????????????? I paid $4000 for these teeth less than 7 years ago. I also need to see a specialist (Endodontist) for the root canals.
There is no “good” time to be told about a huge expense like this and it hits a bit harder right now as it’s time for spring vet visits for the horses and goats, to stock up and purchase hay for the upcoming winter, and to try and save a bit of “fun” money to enjoy the summer. We gave up the cottage we rented in Long Beach, Canada for a week, I sold my round pen for training horses (which really stings as this has been a life long enjoyment I have working with horses), and are selling a few other horse items we are not using to put towards the dental work. Luckily there is a dental “credit card” with zero percent financing for a year as that will help as well.
So while I have been wallowing in my pity party for myself it’s amazing how God can put things in perspective. I have a friend who lost a son to brain cancer at the age of 7 who has now been diagnosed with cancer herself which is horrific as she has a tween daughter who lived through losing her brother and will now face the fear of her mother being sick, another friend has recently had a double mastectomy, and yet another friend dealing with an addiction issue with her only child.
Sometimes we need that kick in the head to remind us that regardless of what we are facing, there are others who deserve our pity WAY more than ourselves!!
So tomorrow while in the dental chair for the first of my proceedings, I will be praying…not for myself but for the others whose lives are so terribly uprooted right now. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers as well!